Behind the Scenes

Dark, gloomy and silent,
A feeling of depression hit me
And there i stood looking at them
I work work work
Only to be ignored
By those who have found what they wanted
And decided to abandon me
For the ones they love
I have done all the work
Behind the scenes for them
But all i get in the end is just ignorance
I never should have done what i did
Though i sound evil and bad
But its better than just looking at their backs now
And meaning almost nothing to them at all
There is no way i can be beside them anymore
Because, all i am now, is a leftover
And walking behind them, only being able to see their backs
Is the most suitable for such people like me.......

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I'm clueless
But I'm scared,
I see you being surrounded by them,
I feel like i'm about to loose you
When you're around me,
I never know what to do
Do i know what i want?
I think i want you
But am i sure?
I am afraid
I am hurt because of you
Your fear of hurting me has already torn me into pieces
Your fear of loosing me has already injured me badly
Dont fear to loose or hurt me
Because that way, you're causing me more damage
I'll be shattered in no time.....
Although I will heal,
The scars are still going to be there...
I know you are scared to loose again
But why not try again,
This time, you may not loose
But rather gain....
If you carry that fear of loosing with you
You'll end up hurting everybody around you
Everyone falls down, but we all learn to get back up
And start all over again
So why cant you do that?
If you get up and reach out for my hand,
And never let go, you know i'll be yours

I Won't Let Go!!!!

Today, i called u
When u heard me that it as me
U didnt sound surprised
There was nothing, and nothing
For us to talk about
The phone was so silent
And then I just said "bye"
And then u cut me off so fast
But my mind just wont get off u
I've been thinkin of you........
So please, please be with me
Cause i really love you
Even till the day we separate
I will continue to love u
And i will continue to love you
I'll always wanna be with you
And i dont want anything to separate us
But things just don't go too good
But I cant let go,
I cant possibly let go,
And I wont let go,
I dont wanna let you go........

You Vanish

You are always there, just not that i can see

Protecting me one way or another, like me guardian angel

But once in a while, you disappear in to thin air

Where i cannot find you, see you or hear you

You seem to be with me all the time

But there are times that you vanish

Like you don't want to care anymore

Like you're tired of having to protect me

You vanished once, you vanished twice,

And then a third, each and everytime, it breaks my heart

Shatters it into a thousand pieces,

Putting it in a critical condition,

You disappear, leaving me to face the pain myself

And one day, you decide to come back

To start protecting me again,

But each time you come back,

I fear for you to leave again

Without sayin, without a reason.......