Under Your Spell

You were nothing to me

From the very beginning

Merely just a friend

That i didnt want to see

But then........

You took the poison out of me

And since then, I've been under your spell

I fell silently for you

But sadly you were not available for me

Then I went away

And thats when you said:

When you come back, you shall be the happiest girl ever

And i believed you.......

The day i came back, you came for me......

I really did think that i would be the happiest girl ever

But the situation never changed.....

You were still not available for me

And then, you said you need some time off

You just left, leaving me here in pain

The love i have for you grew day by day

Yet, you just kept me waiting

I waited and waited......

Suddenly, i receive the best news ever

You're available again.....

Finally, i thought that we could be together

And we were......But this didnt last for long.......

Till you told me, i wasnt important enough

And there and then, i was left there alone, by myself

Knowing that i have lost you,

I cared about nothing else on this earth

Disasters came, one by one......

But then, you came and gave me hope again

You kept me in secret and yet, i was still happy

For being in secret is better than nothing

This didnt last for long either

Because walls have ears

Secrets get out.....

My trust had been betrayed

Ever since then......

Things have changed.....

You claim you still love me.....

But seems like your attention is still not mine

I'm still here under your spell.....

I want you, your attention, your everything

Because, i have lost everything to you

Ever since you put me under your spell....

But now......I'm tired.....I may still be under your spell

But its starting to wear off bit by bit.....

Now its your turn to make an effort to keep me under your spell

Love Poison

I kissed your soft lips

And fell under your spell

And now, i'm deeply in love with you

You are like a poison

That is slowly spreading....

And making me fall deeper and deeper........

Slowly, its starting to hurt

Whenever you're not here with me

My heart starts aching

And my head start hurting...

From thinking about you too much.....

And when you're with me,

My eyes go blind.....

Because you're all I can see....

Everytime you let go,

It hurts me and takes away the smile on my face

As days pass by, the poison spreads all around my body

And now, i'm completely under your spell.....

And if you should leave me,

Your poison will kill me........

Too Far Away

I stretch out my hand

Try to reach to you

But all I can feel....

Is the breeze,

Passing by my cold fingers...

You're too far away from me

I need you here with me

To keep me warm....

Through the cold nights....

Where are you?

Why are you not here with me?

Ur always not here when i need you

Ur always far away from me....

Like you are trying to hide from me...

Tell me why...

It breaks my hear to think

Of how far you are

And I miss you more

Everytime I think of you

And it hurts so much

When I reach out for you

And all I get...

Is the thin, cold air...

As I see you move further and further away

Away from me....

It shatters my heart into a million pieces.......

Give Up

Giving up is not that easy

Sometimes its better not to give up

Because there are a lot of unexpected

If you give up at the wrong time,

You may miss something,

Something that you will regret missing,

Or....

You may run into something even better

There are a lot of "What Ifs" in this world

What if this, What if that?

Well its not about the What ifs? Is it?

Its about what you have now and not what could have happened

Or What Should have happened....Right?

We are what we are because what should have happened, happened

And what shouldn't have, didn't.....

Isn't this what makes us who we are?

I chose not to give up at times that i should have

And in the end i hurt myself

And left scars on me

But this time, i chose to give up before i end up getting any scars

But i missed out on something

And on the bright side, i ran into something better

But am i sure what i ran into is better?

Nobody knows but at this very moment,

I think that what ran into is more than awesome

And i shall treasure my every moment with it,

Rather than dwell in the past and regret on what i missed out on........

Because i believe that there are second chances in this world..

And i'm sure i will have a second chance with what i missed out on.......

Paper Cuts

No scars, No signs
Insignificant
But it stings
One kind of pain
That i can't stand
Although nobody can see it
It pierces my heart
Although i say it doenst hurt,
Deep inside, it hurts and burns like fire
Its so bad that I can't handle it
I cover the pain with smiles
But when i see you
I can't smile...So all i do
Is to walk away silently.....
Paper cuts sting, but it will heal....Just a matter of time

Fear of Love

I fear to be alone

I fear to be abandoned....

I dont want to be abandoned....

Because of love.....

I fear it when people by me

Are in love, because, they tend to forget

Forget everything but their lover

I fear love myself because

I dont know what it can do to me....

Love can hurt me very badly

Love is very cruel

Loving someone who doesnt love you,

Is the thing i fear the most

Being hurt by love is scary....

No matter what type of love it is,

It hurts, and it makes me bleed....

It stings, i hate to see it,

Love brings out the jealousy in me

And the selfishness that i try to hide....

I hate myself when i become like that

Just because of love....

Y can love change one so much?

I dont understand....

The pain that it brings people,

The injuries and scars that it makes,

The way it brings tears out of our eyes,

The way it can kill people

Also, the way it can make people go crazy,

Yet why do we fall in love?

When it can do all these crazy things to us...

It makes me seek for attention

Even self-control is useless against love

Because these 4 letters are very powerful.....

They can make one happy or sad.....

This word, L-O-V-E.......is amazing......

Choices

Making choices are hard

There is always an opportunity cost
To a choice that you make

Either u sacrifice this to have that

Or that to have this

Why cant we have both?

Then that will just make life

Or everything else easier

But it doesnt work that way

We are always forced to choose one or the other

Once u choose, it would mean that

You have hurt someone or sacrificed

Something that means equally as much.....

Why do humans have to suffer because of choices?

Isnt there another way around things?

Another way that does not hurt anyone

Or maybe this is wot is called "Life"

We always have all these choices to make

And when we make the wrong ones,

There is no turnin back......

Somtimes even regretting wont help

Because what has been done is done
And we cannot change that fact.......