Too Far Away

I stretch out my hand

Try to reach to you

But all I can feel....

Is the breeze,

Passing by my cold fingers...

You're too far away from me

I need you here with me

To keep me warm....

Through the cold nights....

Where are you?

Why are you not here with me?

Ur always not here when i need you

Ur always far away from me....

Like you are trying to hide from me...

Tell me why...

It breaks my hear to think

Of how far you are

And I miss you more

Everytime I think of you

And it hurts so much

When I reach out for you

And all I get...

Is the thin, cold air...

As I see you move further and further away

Away from me....

It shatters my heart into a million pieces.......

Give Up

Giving up is not that easy

Sometimes its better not to give up

Because there are a lot of unexpected

If you give up at the wrong time,

You may miss something,

Something that you will regret missing,

Or....

You may run into something even better

There are a lot of "What Ifs" in this world

What if this, What if that?

Well its not about the What ifs? Is it?

Its about what you have now and not what could have happened

Or What Should have happened....Right?

We are what we are because what should have happened, happened

And what shouldn't have, didn't.....

Isn't this what makes us who we are?

I chose not to give up at times that i should have

And in the end i hurt myself

And left scars on me

But this time, i chose to give up before i end up getting any scars

But i missed out on something

And on the bright side, i ran into something better

But am i sure what i ran into is better?

Nobody knows but at this very moment,

I think that what ran into is more than awesome

And i shall treasure my every moment with it,

Rather than dwell in the past and regret on what i missed out on........

Because i believe that there are second chances in this world..

And i'm sure i will have a second chance with what i missed out on.......

Paper Cuts

No scars, No signs
Insignificant
But it stings
One kind of pain
That i can't stand
Although nobody can see it
It pierces my heart
Although i say it doenst hurt,
Deep inside, it hurts and burns like fire
Its so bad that I can't handle it
I cover the pain with smiles
But when i see you
I can't smile...So all i do
Is to walk away silently.....
Paper cuts sting, but it will heal....Just a matter of time

Fear of Love

I fear to be alone

I fear to be abandoned....

I dont want to be abandoned....

Because of love.....

I fear it when people by me

Are in love, because, they tend to forget

Forget everything but their lover

I fear love myself because

I dont know what it can do to me....

Love can hurt me very badly

Love is very cruel

Loving someone who doesnt love you,

Is the thing i fear the most

Being hurt by love is scary....

No matter what type of love it is,

It hurts, and it makes me bleed....

It stings, i hate to see it,

Love brings out the jealousy in me

And the selfishness that i try to hide....

I hate myself when i become like that

Just because of love....

Y can love change one so much?

I dont understand....

The pain that it brings people,

The injuries and scars that it makes,

The way it brings tears out of our eyes,

The way it can kill people

Also, the way it can make people go crazy,

Yet why do we fall in love?

When it can do all these crazy things to us...

It makes me seek for attention

Even self-control is useless against love

Because these 4 letters are very powerful.....

They can make one happy or sad.....

This word, L-O-V-E.......is amazing......

Choices

Making choices are hard

There is always an opportunity cost
To a choice that you make

Either u sacrifice this to have that

Or that to have this

Why cant we have both?

Then that will just make life

Or everything else easier

But it doesnt work that way

We are always forced to choose one or the other

Once u choose, it would mean that

You have hurt someone or sacrificed

Something that means equally as much.....

Why do humans have to suffer because of choices?

Isnt there another way around things?

Another way that does not hurt anyone

Or maybe this is wot is called "Life"

We always have all these choices to make

And when we make the wrong ones,

There is no turnin back......

Somtimes even regretting wont help

Because what has been done is done
And we cannot change that fact.......

The Vanished Magic Heart

The magic heart
Was once by my side
It was always there
To motivate me to do things
Whenever I come across a problem,
I always think of the magic heart
And the problem vanished just like Magic...
This day, the magic heart started to fade,
I knew it was time to say it
I said my wish,
And now, this heart is nowhere to be found
It has vanished into the thin air,
Just like MAGIC.....
All i have now are the particles of dust
That this magic heart has left.........

Fear/Alone

Fear to loose
Fear to change
Fear of loosing everything
I dont like this feeling
Its terrible
To have your things taken away
One by one
And have your friends
Leaving you, one by one
I fear that day will come
I fear to loose
I dont want to loose
I fear that everything wont be the same
I dont want to change
This feeling, is worse than torture
This feeling, is killing me deep inside
I dont want to loose my friends and people that i treasure
Please! Dont take them away from me!
I cant live without them....
They are very important to me...
I plead for your mercy
Dont take them away from me
If you take them away from me,
I would ask you to take my life away along with them
Dont leave me all alone
I fear the dark
I fear to be lonely
I dont want to be alone in the dark
Its scary
Dont let me be the only one left in this world
Please..........